Well all in all it wasn't too bad, I suppose. I weighed in at 194.0 on Monday. It's essentially holding steady from last week.

The issue? I stayed on plan like GLUE all week, was down to the low 193's, and then had to go on a weekend camping trip with my family and church.

Camp food.

You know the type, right? S'mores, hotdogs, etc etc?

Yeah. Pretty much obliterated any calorie deficit I was maintaining for the week, which is just a wee bit frustrating. The good news is that I was on plan before and on plan immediately after getting back, and lost no significant ground. The bad news is that I would have traded the whole trip just to not have to go off plan. I hate stutters in my resolve like that, where I don't even WANT to go off plan but circumstances dictate that I will. I didn't go badly off plan, but I would have preferred to spend my weekend eating normally and not junk. It wasn't even particularly good junk, and if I am going to blow calories I at least want to ENJOY them!

This week and the next and going to be incredibly stressful. It is VBS next week and thus there is both junk food and stress in droves, as I am the snack lady for 140 kids and the snacks are all various types of calorie dense, sugary food. That's just the way the curriculum plans them. Not terrible, but strawberry jam biscuits, popcorn, apples with dip, cookies, etc etc... None of them are diet friendly, and stress makes me tend to shove my face anyway.

My plan is going to be an exercise in control. One meal at a time, planned out from the morning, with allowances for my healthier type of fun food (Italian cream sodas, dark chocolate, home-made popcorn out of the wok, etc etc). I am going to chew gum like nobody's business and suck on mints to avoid putting the piles of sugar into my mouth, licking any empty batter bowls, or generally grazing on stuff that makes me crave more carbs and lose less weight, it's just not worth it to me anymore, to indulge on that stuff. I'm not there, my head is in loss mode, so I can't gracefully accept a junk week as 'okay' right now. If I hold steady or lose a small bit during the next two weeks I will consider that a massive victory, in the face of the hours of being immersed in sugary floury fluff that will make up my evenings.

I WILL get this weight off. I'm done with the 190's and not willing to languish here any longer than necessary. One pound at a time, one choice at a time, my butt is down and out of here! And no VBS treats will stop me from achieving that goal!