I'm still here, plague-ridden and sluggish as I am things are going pretty well. We're halfway through the week-without-Daddy and so far doing pretty good, all things considered. With Nyquil and coffee, alternately, I'm managing to function well enough that stuff is getting done, kids are surviving, and only a few too many cartoons are being watched.

As for my eating, it has been solidly good some days and pretty bad others, in equal measure, so I am losing very slowly or holding steady, spending on the day. I'm trying to take it one good meal at a time. Last night was heavy overindulgence on takeout sushi, and while it was tasty I am looking forward to eating at home tonight. A sweet friend from my church called when she heard I was sick and offered (insisted) to bring me and the kids and meal and help out around here a bit. While I refused the help because I didn't want her kids getting sick, I will happily accept her cooking for a day, so I am looking forward to a nice stew and banana bread. I am so grateful for her tenderness and care, it is a huge blessing to me!

Exercise has been non-existent for a month or two, and the reason is actually not laziness. I have gotten very heavily back into my piano practicing and am loving it, I finally modified my practice approach and it revolutionized the way I felt about the whole endeavor (I've been doing it wrong for years, it turns out, and that was why I was apathetic about playing and not progressing, even as a child. They tell you to practice and never actually explain what that entails!). So my exercise block in the afternoon is now translating to an hour of piano practice. While it burns calories, it isn't quite the same as time on the bike ;)

I need to figure out how to adjust my daily time allotments to fit both in, but so far I haven't managed. That is my second project down the list - my first is getting disciplined about bedtimes again, so I can wake and do my bible study instead of needing more sleep. It's always a tradeoff, but that is one I can't afford to make. I HAVE to be disciplined about sleep and I've let it slide for two months - it shows, too, in weight issues as much as snappy tempers and listlessness. No more. It isn't worth it and it's about time I decided that! My lack of discipline in this area affects my husband and children too, and that is the last straw!

So anywa, that's where I am. I weighed in at 194.6 yesterday and 198 today, thanks to the Japanese and sodium content of last night. Such is life, and onward I go.