Remind me, when I get lazy on my TTap, to not to.
My skirts are already fitting worlds better at the same weight, simply because my abdominal tone us getting back up. Just a week of TTap had to have tightened up my waist measurement by at least two inches. Like, visibly done so. I even ate about three ounces too much salami last night (whoops, that's what I get for poor meal planning during an overly busy day) and have no scale to give me feedback, but just going by bloat, pudge, and clothing, positive changes are ahoy.
It was getting to the point where I didn't want to wear two of my Hannah Lise skirts, because they caused such an obvious waist roll. And what's more ridiculous, I bought them at a few pounds higher than this weight and they fit better. Ehat was different then? I was T-Tapping! While the scale is all well and good, being comfortable in my own skin and looking attractive in my clothing, for my sake and my husband's, is really what I'm after. TTap and the suitable diet of your choice (for your specific needs and preferences) does it every time.
This is my THIRD go-around discovering this, and maybe this time it will stick.
Every time my eating is good and I'm doing my TTap DVDs, I look awesome.
Every time my eating is right on and I'm not doing my DVDs, I begin looking flabby.
Every time my eating is lazy and my body is too, I gain real weight and things get tight.
So the solution? Avoid all forms of dietary and activity-related laziness. It is a half hour of my day or so to do a DVD, and my food logging and measuring is automatic. For so little effort expended the payout is immense, and the consequences of not doing these things are unacceptably high in my book. Short of a real and pressing reason, like postpartum healing or illness, I need to stay on track with both things most of the time. Learn from my mistakes, friends, and do your tapping dutifully. It pays off in energy, appearance, and good old fashioned strength. And we mommies need all of those things to serve our Lord, spouses, and offspring.
Quick daily update - Bible study done. TTap done. Piano commencing. We had a night about an hour later than we should have yesterday evening, thanks to that aforementioned overly busy day. We both felt it this morning, and got going half an hour late. And how late am I on beginning piano? Oh yeah, half an hour. Hmmm...
Eating was okay yesterday, though I had a tantrum moment and ate a slice of fruitcake in the middle of the crazy errands. Fortunately the rest of my day was on track with food types and calories, until I went for an evening snack of salami and a hamburger patty. Of the things I could have eaten after my official dinner, those were excellent snack choices. But I wasn't physically hungry and should have just had tea instead of munched. Duly noted and filed, today is much more normal for time and activities.
And a quick praise - I've been working on scripture memory, my current passage is Psalm 103. I kept tripping up over a section to the point where I've picked it up and put it down three times since March! It was like a roadblock, and then when life intervened it was easy to get lazy on memory work (newborn and all) along with every other activity that I'm spending my morning on these days. But The Lord prodded me on the issue and we have a providentially timely bible study going through Susan Heck's "A Call to Scripture Memory". I'd already read through it when I initially was moved to get over my excuses about memory work and view them as they are - a vital part of my daily walk as a believer. But redoing the study solidified this in my mind.
And how now? In doing my memory work and meditation on scripture again, I'm seeing more peaceful days and Christ centered thoughts. As with everything else in this post, you'd think I'd learn and not fall into a recidivism of laziness again. Seriously, this is so predictable. Someone can just email me this entry the next time I'm justifying all the reasons why I haven't done _________ in a week!
I've been kicked in the read this morning.
Well, maybe not a kick in the rear so much as a punch between the shoulder blades.
I purchased the TTap DVD, Tempo Arms, during my pregnancy with Holly. I never did manage to work it into my workout schedule, as I was always pressed for time and tired by the time I'd get to my 7 pm workout block in the evening. So I did shorter workouts instead, and did quite well.
But now I'm waking up at 5:00 and drinking coffee/doing bible study by 6:00, then working out at 7 am every morning. And while it looks like I may need to be downstairs and down my bible study half an hour earlier to get in a full workout routine AND piano afterward (as it is 8 am now and I still need to practice, but the kids also need waking), I am finding it much easier to work in a heavy TTap rotation this early in the morning. It pumps me up for the day and fully wakes me up, but I still have enough energy to give a solid effort.
So long story short, with my new schedule of bible study/workout/piano practice in the mornings, I was brave and jumped into Tempo Arms.
It's short, just shy of 30 minutes, but from the sped up intro workout (what Teresa calls her Primary Back stretch, except this one is quicker and more intense than her beginner level version) through to the hoedowns at the end, the entire thing is fast and intense. There's only one pause for a ten second water break, and multiple repetitions of her arm and back workout regimen. Deltoids, triceps, lats, and pecs all done with isometrics and TTap form, which means tight quads and abs the entire time. It's a full body workout with a slight upper body emphasis, truth be told. I am thoroughly fatigued after that sucker, and imagine when I wake up tomorrow I'll be feeling it in every tiny back muscle I didn't even know I had.
It was fun, too. And challenging. Like all TTap routines, it never gets easy, because as you get better at the exercises your form should also improve, which ups both intensity and efficacy.
It's not one of her longer workouts, but it has many elements of them (the arm exercises are from her Basic Plus, a Total Workout, and MORE routines, but faster, to a tempo, and with form tweaks to focus the effort on the arm and shoulder muscle groups). I am a bit glad I didn't try it out for the first time while pregnant or immediately postpartum, as my fitness level was good but stamina and RQ was poor, in particular, with the strain of making a human. Getting out of breath and fatigued more quickly may have made this unpleasant and traumatized me out of doing it. So it was great I waited. Because now I'm a big fan, even as a quiver like a jellyfish in the tide.
TTap Tempo Arms gets an A grade from me. The only thing hindering it from an A+ is that it is just the workout and no instruction or slower version, but this is inherent in the fact that it is NOT a beginner TTap workout and expects you to have a working, practical knowledge of both the Basic and Total workouts. The need for additional instruction or a slower speed is covered in those DVDs, so this one is just a supplement for an experienced tapper looking to switch up the daily routine or focus on upper body more specifically. Still, I have experience and it was definitely quick the first time through. I imagine my next workout with it will go much more smoothly since I know what to expect, both in exercise sequence and tempo.
On to a more general update - I had my husband hide the scale from me again. I'm focusing on working out and plan adherence until the day before Christmas. I am SO enjoying being back in the saddle with TTap and always feel this way once I stop slacking off, but this workout is incredibly intense strength training, and full body, so I retain water like a whale if you just go by the scale number. However I also visibly shrink and gain muscle definition, too. So with TTap the scale becomes a poor indicator because it confounds that metric even as it gives real life results. It's those results, with energy and stability and strength and trimness, that I'm after. Thus, my scale is obsolete for now.
Furthering that obsolescence, my hormones are back and cyclical, so part of the month I bounce or appear to gain on the scale due to water retention with my progesterone levels (yay luteal phase - NOT!). I know that, nursing or not, if I'm eating in the 18-1900 calorie range and 25-35 net carbs, I WILL lose weight at a fairly fast clip. And even with a higher calorie day once a week for a date, I still will, at worst, maintain. And I have to seriously overeat during a week for that to be the case (which it was, a few months back). Even without nursing or working out, just tracking my food like that will result in physical maintenance or improvements. That is not maintenance calories or carbs for this size of my body. Overeating by ten or twenty more carbs and 400 more calories was maintainance or slight gains at this size.
Thus, I'm perfectly comfortable and even pleased to ditch the scale for a few weeks and allow just working out and returning to my comfortable by weight deficit calorie/carb amount to be my metrics. I want to check in the day before Christmas, as I would like a baseline for my weight before I eat the next day and see some water retention as I recover from it. Christmas is one of my few days of the year I will allow the carbs and foods I've been craving but cannot eat in any regular or frequent fashion. I'll probably then spend another week or two back on my normal intake level and then weigh in again to make sure more adjustments don't need to be made.
At this point in life and diet, the scale isn't nearly as crucial for me as it used to be. It's a strange place to be, as I am a staunch advocate of daily weighing and weight tracking for maintenance. But I've done this for multiple years now, and I know that I only need that scale input when either my carbs or calories are up beyond my current levels. That's when I'm toeing the line and have to watch carefully to prevent gains. At my current size and condition, I have zero need for the scale if I'm on plan in the way I've outlined above.
The gameplan moving forward is that I'm going to switch to monthly or quarterly weigh-ins as long as I'm having weight loss mojo (the happy headspace where diet is easy and exercise is consistent) and am not pregnant. If I start to struggle, as I did earlier in the fall, I will probably switch back to more frequent weighing to rein things in for a bit. But I've hit the point with my body and plan that I am confident and totally comfortable with not bothering with the scale. I'm small enough now (wow, how cool is that?!) that I can tell if I've overdone it by my waistband and bra band being tight, if for some miraculous reason my daily food journal isn't clearly spelling out the reason. As always, I HAVE to trumpet the excellence of tracking food intake and measuring for weight management. It's so easy and helpful, it makes pinpointing gains and problems with diet very straightforward. It, like a daily weight log, can tell the story of what your body is doing in a way few other things can. It's not a complete picture, but a useful component to understand.
As a final update, obviously the earlier waking is working well. Very well. Maybe too well, as I'm toast by 7 pm in the evening and ready for bed :). And I slept in on Saturday while my husband did breakfast with the kids - big mistake. I felt behind the ball the entire morning and didn't get many tasks accomplished to satisfaction. I also stayed up too late Saturday night and it made Sunday a bear. A friend discussed with me that her family realized sleeping in on the weekends was doing more harm than good to their schedules and bodies, too, and so they adopted a consistent wake time for each day of the week. I nodded and smiled, but didn't feel any logic or reason in me doing the same thing, but I see it now. I told my husband we're better off just setting the alarm for 5-6 am every day and being consistently early with bedtime, and he agreed to give it a try. The need to sleep later on the weekend is abolished, by and large, by getting enough rest each night. I'm not promising I won't nap in the afternoon if I'm sick or we've had a rough night with the kids, but I have a naptime scheduled if I need it and the benefits of early waking are too big to be ignored.
I'm a huge nightowl, so this is quite the conversion tale. But I'm a believer in early mornings now. Shock.
Checking in with a confirmation that, not only was I tired and ready for bed at 9 pm last night (huge improvement from midnight or later), but that I did fine again this morning with my TTap and bible study. Didn't fit in piano, as my husband's alarm went off and got turned off (thus cutting a half hour out of our morning when we woke up late), but another day of success. I definitely make coffee first thing, but it hadn't been overly difficult to adjust to this rhythm so far except that I have to keep my attention from wandering and time wasting. Some strategies include not checking my email or web browsing before my bible study is done - does marvels in this area ;)
Getting back to TTap has been good, but I confess I do feel like some bludgeoned me repeatedly. The first three days back to it are always challenging, and then it magically gets better and the epic, full body soreness goes away.
Someone online was asking if they could have diet coke on their low carb meal plan. There is a lot of confusion about this thanks to bad science and food purism to ridiculous degrees, but here are my thoughts.
If artificial sweeteners greatly impacted losses in and of themselves, I'd still be morbidly obese. They may cause cravings or be associated with overeating, but I keep a strict log of all food consumed and as long as that is in line I can pound back all the diet coke, tea, and coffee I can stand and still see excellent losses.
Of course, I do moderate all three of those substances for other reasons unrelated to weight loss (hyper squirrel syndrome ) but in my experience they are reasonably inert with regard to weight loss. Individual sensitivity, as always, may vary, but the studies done in this area that don't have major confirmation bias or confounders do seem to support that, for weight management, zero calorie beverages are neutral or have slight bias to either side of that (depends on the study, depends on the particular beverage).
All that to say, there are much bigger dietary fish to fry for most folks - if your eating is so solid that the only possible issue might be diet drink consumption within normal limits and servings, you're quite on your way to successful weight management. But that's the thing - people oftentimes would rather fight over small things like sweeteners or tweak a coffee recipe than deal with the glaring issues in their diets like weekend cheats, thousands of excess calories, or consistently yoyoing because of a lack of livable dietary strategy. Don't fall in the trap of the minutiae - keep this and all other diet and lifestyle issues in perspective.
I'm dusting off this blog, as I've neglected updating once again!
I've been lazy on exercise and that's over with - I did my first TTAP in weeks this morning and have nice, shaky muscles and a loose back and neck for it. Much better than the ball of tightness and fatigue I've been. Weight has been bouncing, though I achieved my Thanksgiving goal of eating what sounded good at that day, and getting immediately back on plan. I managed stuffing and sweet potatoes and didn't let it drag into Friday. That's epic and I'm proud of myself.
I'm almost in a non-weighing mode again. I know what I need to do (stay on plan not only with food, but calorie levels, and exercise more consistently for a whole boatload of reasons beyond my weight). I'm doing it now. So the scale input is helpful, but only barely. I'm debating stashing it until the new year and going into another non-weighing mode where my food tracking is my main litmus. I seem to do very well like that, by and large.
Part of my dinking around the past few months has been a complete inconsistency in personal schedule. I do better with consistency and rigor, but I'm lazy and a procrastinator by nature, and that can be hard to overcome when I have a very legitimate excuse like an infant waking through the night, or in my bed. But Holly is sleeping through the night most nights, and in room with the other girls. And quite frankly, though sleep is nice, my entire day is thrown off when I sleep in and don't wake and get things done. It's also hard for my husband, as he wakes very early and then stays up with me, but I'm less tired than him and push bedtime later and later (as a natural night owl).
So the solution to this is to get up with my husband, at 5:00 or 5:30, at the latest. This is working well for two reasons: One, it is built in accountability with him already bustling about and me joining him; and two, by the time I have to wake the kids up (at 8 am) I already have my bible study, workout, and piano practice squared away. These are the three things I keep not fitting into the rest of my day consistently, and all are crucial for my life and health for their individual and specific reasons. I'm blogging before getting ready for my Ladies Bible Study this morning, after having done an hour of study and a solid workout (piano won't fit with my schedule for getting out the door on time by 8:45, but every other weekday it should work just fine). Not only do I have a chunk of my to-do list now checked off and tucked away, I am coffee'd up, alert, and have had plenty of time to relax and get my head organized before managing the getting ready/breakfast/ school thing. This is huge.
I've been struggling much with my diligence in these areas and the morning has been pushed later and later. This makes us late for schooltime, cuts into playtime for the kids, makes lunch and nap run late, then everything else has been an hour or more later into the evening, and the children aren't even in bed until 9 pm (which is supposed to be OUR bedtime, as adults). My poor husband, waking up three hours earlier than me, keeps going to bed at the same time as me and is horribly sleep deprived for it. So for his sake, I need to be exhausted by bedtime and pushing for it, and the kids needs to be on schedule, and we'll ALL get more consistent sleep. The upside is that my own day is more ordered, more calm, and accomplishes more to help him. I also sin less in this sort of schedule, at least in the areas of anger and impatience, because I'm not behind the ball and rushing everyone else like a drill sergeant, all because *I* fell behind and am mad about it. That's not fair to the kids and it is SO manageable. I haven't been doing it, I got out of the habit of consistent waking and a better schedule, and we suffered for it. So no more.
In other, but related, news:
Diet is going well, nursing has tapered down a bit as Holly is a big solids eater, so I have to now watch my calories more carefully as my milk production diminishes. The upside to this is that my hunger has ratcheted down a bit, too, so I can go longer without eating and eat less without gnawing my arm off. The downside of this is that my period has returned and now I have the monthly luteal phase junk with hunger, tiredness, and a small breakout. Can I give a big shoutout to my ketogenic diet, however, in totally easing these symptoms? I noticed my nose breaking out a bit in hormonal acne right before my period. I noticed, and this is amazing - you see, I used to break out so readily and regularly that I couldn't tell if it was hormones or not; I always had spots! Now I NEVER have zits, except the occasional tiny whitehead if I rest my hand on my face too much, and this is once every week or three. So when I got three small zits in short order, for no discernible reason, that was my clue my period was impending when the other symptoms left me unsure (with nursing my cycle has been longer and irregular). Sure enough, I was right. My diet is so balancing and low inflammation that I actually can note things like progesterone surges and see their effect, because I function normally and my body isn't a haywire mess anymore. Thank you, Dr. Atkins.
And that's all the update I have time to fit, I must rush off to do my makeup and go scrape the car (in freezing weather) to make it to Bible Study in time. I keep hoping I'll check in here more frequently, but it hasn't been happening. The food news is that my lack of updates only signal that I've been busy, not any big issues with diet. And despite the incredibly early morning, I'm feeling energized and excited at how much I've already accomplished. It may be tougher in the coming weeks, when the novelty of a working schedule (finally! Again!) wears off, but then the habit will be set and, since my husband works regardless, it will be a hard one for me to get lazy on and break. His help in this has been huge, and I only hope the changes I've made can then help him in return. He NEEDS me to do better than I have been on keeping the day under control, and is too kind to ever bring it up. But I have noticed and want to fix this for his sake and myself and the children, too.
Hello there! Long time, no blog. And it's for no bad reason - just continual laziness with working out and nothing bit to report on the eating front. My weight bounced around after my trip to California, in the 158-160 range. It went up to 162 with some overeating, and 164-168 while I was sick, which was insane water retention.
Long story short despite some overeating days and even falling into a batch of brownies and having an actual, off-plan food CHEAT with them (almost unheard of for me) I picked myself up, dusted myself off, and got with the program. Now I'm back to 159, which is just a pound above where my weight was when I last went to California. And I'm continuing on my way down the scale, as well as I can. I've hit that point in breastfeeding where my body isn't holding onto every spare ounce with such vigor, so the weight is coming off a bit easier (yay!).
Unfortunately I'm going back to California again this Thursday, for my grandfather's funeral. I'll be the same size I was when I visited over Labor Day, which is a victory in and of itself with how lazy and undisciplined my eating has been. I'm thrilled to see my family again, though I wish it was for a happier occasion. It has been a crazy few weeks and that isn't abating this week, either. The baby will be with me, since she still nurses and I don't have any desire to wean her. Then it's a whirlwind few days of family and memorial, then back to Alaska Sunday afternoon. As always, I will stay on plan to the very best of my abilities when I am down there. Low carb for life, and all that ;)
If anyone needed evidence that all calories aren't created equal, consider the extra thousands of calories I ate over the last two months, of hugely energy dense food (cheese, nut butters, dark chocolate, etc) and the fact that I only gained a measly four pounds from it, which came off promptly once I stopped messing around? If I was doing that on brownies and sandwiches instead, with the same calories and frequency, I'd easily be up ten to fifteen pounds. But being in ketosis and eating these particular foods, suppressing my carbs heavily, makes me very resistant to weight gain. For someone 100-120-ish pounds weight reduced, WITH mommy hormones (progesterone, ugh) promoting fat storage, this is pretty self-evidently amazing. If I wasn't convinced of my own dietary choices before I certainly am now - my health, weight, and appearance all attest to the power of keeping carbs and all processed foods low, fat high, and protein plentiful but not overly abundant.
So I'm 159 today, and will probably be bloated from traveling until the middle of next week. But I'm not fallen off the wagon, dead, or giving up in any fashion. My clothes still fit well, though I can TOTALLY see the effect being lazy on my workouts has had on my muscle tone. I'm working to pick that back up among my other hobbies - sewing, knitting, embroidery, piano, reading, those all vie for pretty scarce free time in my life as a homemaker, mommy, homeschooler, friend, etc. But just as with my eating, I refuse to quit with my working out. I WILL be victorious and get back into a routine with my T-Tap, now that Holly is not sleeping in our room anymore and we have a new rhythm to our family schedule (it changes every season).
I'm here and chugging along, doing my best. I hope the same for all my dear friends out there :)
I was responding to someone online today who posted about 'the morning after'. They were asking how to best respond to a cheat - Drastic dietary measures? Guilt? Here was my response, and it was good to type out to remind myself, if nothing else, why I am here now instead of where I was five years ago, plus more weight gained.
I just posted about this a day or three ago - the way I've lost weight and kept it off is through failure. I fail at my plan all the time - eat too much, have extra cheese, chocolate, whatever. I've slipped up more times than I can easily count even in just the last few months.
But I managed to 'fail' off 100 pounds, and keep it off with very little fluctuation through two pregnancies, stress, and numerous dietary slip ups.
The key? It isn't 'never failing', that's for sure! The secret is to never, EVER give up. Never throw in the towel. Never quit. Never assume that because you popped one tire that it makes sense to slash the other three. Never give yourself permission to indulge, because hey, the day's shot, right?
When the horse throws you off, you get right back on. Not a day later or on a Monday. Not after the next major holiday. The VERY next choice is yours to make, and no past decisions have any bearing on your success or failure in that moment. The very next choice is yours, under your complete control, and you can make it a good, health promoting one. We build these journeys by each choice we make. We don't have the future, we can't change the past. But this very moment, that's OURS. A refusal to give that up to neuroticism, punishment, failure, or the enemy-of-the-good, that's up to you.
How do you lose weight and maintain that loss? Not through perfection, but through grit determination. Stubbornness. *Persistence*. If you never quit, you cannot fail. It's all just part of the process.
His initial assessments on patient behavior, demands, and the response to them aren't wrong on their face. But he is assigning blame incorrectly because he is asking the wrong question. I'm not sure if this is a moral impulse or just a lack of intellectual curiosity - it may even be that his training and paradigm are so set that thinking outside of them just hasn't even occurred to him.
Yes, people are eating more.
Yes, the food is different and should, theoretically, be satiating the body better for the calorie ratio to volume (if his operating paradigm is correct, of course).
Yes, people are burning less calories both in intentional exercise and non-exercise activity thermogenesis (NEAT).
But he is assuming the cause is behavioral, based on people's words and choices in his office and their lifestyle, beyond. He isn't actually asking what I'd posit is the key question - what is going on with hunger? Hunger is a real biological response. It is crucial to survival and driven by multiple chemicals in the body and intensely complex feedback mechanisms across our system. Gluttony and choices are all well and good, but assuming most folks are grossly overeating their calorie needs for years on end, with no apparent effect from the body's built in feedback system for hunger and satiety, is a gross oversight that an objective look at the evidence would allow.
The problem is hunger, and what is driving our hunger, fat storage, and inappropriate use of those fat stores in favor of more consumed energy. And this is compounded by the more behavioral problem of the aforementioned observer not being objective, whatever their reasons. Plenty of individuals from journalists to cardiologists to moms to rural goat farmers, have looked at dietary data and come to these conclusions that hunger is being inappropriately signaled, satiety overridden, and obesity and excess appetite and sluggishness are the symptoms and not causative in nature. Many of us have experienced this for ourselves though dietary changes that have 'magically' cured years of disordered consumption and 'failures of willpower'. But unfortunately there is much resistance among many health practitioners, as well as true ignorance at play, preventing dissemination of this information and action on it. And yes, then there's the consumer and the reality that a fair portion of people just don't want to change their habits for life to gain health or a particular size.
All this I am convinced to be true, but what to do about it beyond individual choice and telling whoever is interested, eludes me.
I realized how long it had been since a blog post, some time in the middle of the rush this past week. So a quick note was in order. Diet is pretty good - lots of maintaining eating, not a lot of calorie deficit, but I'm okay with that. I'm doing better this week after a few of struggle against hunger and emotional eating. Like so many things, diet enthusiasm waxes and wanes for me. The good news is that my default is maintenance, not regaining. Not backsliding into my pre-loss habits. Not refusing accountability. I will be weighing in the second week of October and don't expect to have dropped much more weight than I'd done before my trip, but I do hope I can surmount that half pound left to 100 pounds lost (from when I began my official count). My clothes all fit great, so even with numerous higher-than-desired days in there, my eating seems to be mostly keeping pace with my burn from making milk.
Things have been so busy. I'm struggling with juggling the entire family schedule, hobby time, music, and exercise, too. Exercise has been the ball first dropped, piano practice second. I'm working on it, but retooling the family schedule (again) to fit each new life stage is a big task and one I'm nibbling away. Discipline with waking up early enough to stay on track has been one of the biggest sticking points, but with a baby who nurses anywhere from once to three or four times a night is a challenge and extra sleep has been consistently more valuable to me than waking two hours earlier to get more done. Thankfully that is changing as Holly ages, and I'm becoming more diligent and purposeful with my time again, instead of just surviving and feeling like I'm barely treading water. God has been good in answering my prayers in this area, but a lot of it has been showing me my own lazy tendencies and prioritizing, more than any miraculous interventions ;)
Much of my spare (ha!) time that isn't focused on getting the home running has been aimed on crafting. I have PILES of knitting that need completion,and recently dove back into sewing with a vengeance. My new personal project is sewing a ton and regularly, learning as much as I can and making clothes, to see if my dislike of the craft is because I don't actually like sewing, or if it has just been surmounting the learning curve and the slowness of setup-takedown that drives me nuts. I'm semi-permanently taking over my dining room, so that helps with not having to do a half hour of setup and cleanup each time I sew a stitch. Getting proper equipment and researching some additional dressmaking techniques and tips has also helped. I have spent the past week fixing my grandmother's vintage machine and refinishing the cabinet it came in (more on that over at the Aurora Fiber Arts blog), and have been bitten hard by the vintage machine bug. I find these older machines much more reliable and pleasurable to sew on.
Let's see - we homeschool year round so not much change on our daily lessons, but it is nice to be back into the fall schedule for the rest of the world. We resumed swimming and Lilah began piano lessons with Callie's teacher, which has added to our workload but in a positive way. My husband, as always, is the busiest family member of all. Today he's pouring a pad for the stairs of our deck and running a million and one errands.
I think that's the bulk of the update. Time to put the kids to nap!
That's what I weigh right now. A little higher when I eat too much salt or late at night. Half a pound shy of 100 pounds lost from my start weight, and about 115-120 from my highest weight ever.
I fly out to see my family tonight, and I'm loosening up and not tracking calories for this little vacation (carbs will still be kept in line and I won't eat anything but low carb fare, just like I did over Christmas). When I get back home on Wednesday I will put my scale away again and work on remaining on plan until October, where I'll take another weigh in and reassess whether to call that weight goal or keep at it longer. I'm happy here, as a size 10/busty medium/32HH, etc. I'd like to be smaller - maybe a size 6? But I'm not going to figuratively kill myself to get there, either. I'm going to have more pregnancies, get older, you name it. My weight these days probably can't be as low as I could have gone before my first child (and now I've given birth to four!). But I'm smaller than I've ever been except childhood, healthy, and enjoy my way of eating. I still need to hit the exercise harder. I still find maintenance easier than losing (I'm a mutant, what can I say?). I will eat low carb/ketogenic forever, because I look and feel my best this way with the least amount of effort.
That's where I'm at these days.
As a side note, I got new glasses today. They're bifocals (boo!) because my eyes have focus problems and they'll get worse with time. On the upside, they're these sparky new progressive lenses that have no *lines* for the bifocal portion, but rather a zone. They're a little tricky to use and my eyes are getting used to them, but I love the frames :)
By regular, I'm referring to regular blogging! When I don't have a daily weight to post, it's harder to make myself update.
I'm still plugging along, not gaining and losing who knows what. Right now I'm waffling as to whether I should just weigh in and call whatever weight I'm at 'goal!', since I'm starting to get bored of losing and am content with my body in clothes, in activity, for health parameters, etc. I'm not skinny, I'm not thin, I'm not even athletic in my build right now (I don't think?). But I am proportional, I'm at a size that is simple to maintain, and I'm a mom without my tummy screaming "GET THEE SOME SPANX!". I'm a size 10/12 on the bottom, medium/large on top, with a 32 inch bra band and very respectably ranged wrist and finger circumferences, too. I don't have a double chin, any chub rub is primarily loose skin that hasn't tightened, and I'm not feeling any negative effects of a very, very ketogenic diet.
So should I call it good? I am a little worried about constantly moving the goalposts downward and never being content where I'm at. There is still fat, still things I'd like to change in my body. But whether or not it is worth the discipline and mental energy to do it is another ball game entirely! I'm still thinking of running hard at this until October, but I must acknowledge that short of that commitment I'm flagging a bit.
I overeat my calories many days of the week (not enough to gain, and usually to hunger, but enough that I'm not shrinking visibly fast). Some of that is breastfeeding, as my calorie limit was set on the bottom edge of what is acceptable for milk production (generally speaking). A little as been stress/boredom eating. I need to tighten up on that and the snacking after my main meal. We've been so busy I haven't been sleeping well (and the baby is in a stage of waking me up three times a night and starting her day two hours before my alarm) - I *know* this is detrimental to hunger/satiety cues and overall cortisol levels. These are all factors. But given all of the above, would a reassessment be wise? Who knows! I'm giving it more time - at least until my trip to California in two weeks. And I'll admit some of this may be hormonal. But the desire to just be done with losing and stick to maintaining is strong. Maybe I'm just lazy that way.
I've been a slouch on exercise for numerous good (but inadequate) reasons. I need to do better there. Everything else, besides some extra calories and less movement than I'd like, is fine. Clothes fit better than they did a month ago, though the difference is subtle. I have no idea how much I weigh. It could be 165 or 155, I have zero index to base a guess off of - I'm smaller than I've ever been and that's about it. Is it good enough? Should I keep going? Breastfeeding hormones seem to be keeping fat on my belly and hips (a well documented phenomenon) which is making this assessment more challenging. And I'd LOVE to do another hCG round and get the weight off quickly, to get to maintenance. But I can't do that while breastfeeding and it is very likely I'll end up pregnant again before I could do another round. I thought about weaning Holly or just trying the hCG while nursing, but it isn't a wise prospect for the quality or quantity of my milk and doesn't sit well with me emotionally, so that's right out. I think I'm pretty much stuck with this slow plod to whatever goal I set.
That's my update for right now. Nothing bad, just blah, boring, and indecisive. Believe it or not I'm doing very well, which is why I have time to bemoan insignificant points like "I'm bored!" and "where to stop?". But I do wish I could regain the zeal to hit this hard and be uncomfortable to drop weight faster. That energy is gone, and what remains is the same determination and commitment I've always had - to lose and not regain. The speed of that mindset is a crawl, but it has served me well so far. Sometimes I'm in weight loss zen and the restrictions of losing are easy. Sometimes, like right now, it's a struggle. But as always, I'm in it for life and would never dream of quitting.
I'm such a boring blogger right now - schooling the kids has me very busy, along with Peter's work schedule being crazy and the summer fun time added on top of it. I'm definitely thinner - fitting firmly into medium tops and 10/12 on bottom. Again, no weight to attach to it, but I keep plugging along. I will be weighing in sooner than originally anticipated, because I'm planning a visit to my family at the end of August and want a baseline before I go, since I'm thinking a few family members will be asking how much I've lost. Maybe I'm being optimistic, but I think I look different enough from my last visit to elicit some comments.
Exercise has be a non-starter the last two weeks. So busy, and the baby is sleeping poorly right now, so my normal evening stretch for exercise, bible study, and relaxation after dinner has been filled with delayed chores (from the overly busy days and evenings), keeping the kids busy, and alternating dishes with the fussy (but so sweet!) infant. It's just reality right now, I do the best I can and don't worry about the rest.
Now, one of the pictures! We had some done a few weeks ago at JCP and they turned out quite nice. We hadn't done any professional photos for two years, so it was definitely time. And the groupon made it a steal ;)
First are mommy and daddy, then the evil underlings :)
I'm biased, given that I've experienced many of the evidences in this article in my own self experiment and am firmly convinced of the merits of low carb/high fat as a dietary framework. But still, this is one of the most succinct, best referenced blog posts I've read summing up the criticisms (and reality) of low carb diets. Good stuff, do read!
Quick note - still on plan and doing well, though I did massively overdo my calories on Saturday for a date, I was right back on my totals the next day and feeling cold as ever (a sure sign I'm in energy deficit and losing weight). I find staying on plan with my foods but allowing a liberal intake of them every once in awhile seems to do me good. A giant slab of rare prime rib and a blue cheese wedge was soul food and much enjoyed, especially since my husband has been so insanely busy that we haven't had a real date in weeks. And with this many small children running around, that's no good!
Positive thing to report that could be my imagination, or not - I am an apple when I gain weight, despite a proportional and curvy figure when slimmer. I gain fat on my neck, between my shoulders, and all down my flanks, in addition to belly and chest. I really dislike that gain pattern, as it made me look like an amorphous and somewhat androgynous at my high weight. These days I'm very nicely curvy and anywhere from a 10-12 on the bottom and a medium/large in tops, but I still battle the back/shoulder fat that is slow to diminish. I finally seem to have made progress in this area! I went from several rolls on my sides when I was 260+, to now having NO back rolls. Just on the last two days I've noticed the 'roll' factor has gone away. I still have little pads there, I'm not rail smooth along my ribs. But NO major creasing/rolling. I'm slimming down in my most stubborn areas, and that is worthy of celebration. No clue what I weigh, but taking that scale break has been SO good for my brain. Now I'm just focused on plan adherence, not the maintenance adjustment dance I do so well.
Goodbye, back pudge! I rejoice in your departure!
I worked out Sunday and tonight, too, after taking a break Saturday due to business in the morning and a nap in the evening (migraine related, boo!). I am positive that is also helping the torso slimming. T-Tap is incredible for the core and I feel so strong and upright after a workout, and persistently thereafter. Teresa focuses on posture and I can feel my muscles supporting a stronger and more aligned posture throughout the day, almost unconsciously. Great stuff.
Off to bed now.
Yes, I'm still longing for my scale, on some level. Not too keenly, but as I notice things shrinking I want numerical proof.
I've been on plan, no real issues except some higher calorie days the last two weeks. Not as tight as I'd like, but I've crunched back down. Unless I'm genuinely hungry for extra, I'm really working hard to stay in my range. It shouldn't affect my losses too much, but I don't want to test it, either!
We survived VBS (no cheating, despite gobs of junk food available and a high stress situation the entire week). Unfortunately there were casualties - primarily our immune systems! We all came down with head colds and haven't shaken them yet, a week later. Bummer, but what can you do?
Because of huge sleep deprivation (baby isn't sleeping well when she is sick, and we're still insanely busy) and illness, I haven't been making workouts a priority. But tonight I did my first T-Tap in two weeks, since I miss it and am feeling better. The aforementioned VBS made getting school and food, let alone workouts, a very challenging scheduling task. I was corralling fourth graders right about when I was supposed to be sweating it out to a DVD. But since I am on the mend I sucked it up tonight and did my basic plus workout. I feel pretty good and am glad I squeezed it in.
I'm also making piano more of a priority again, since I've taken off from it from about 38 weeks pregnant until this week.m I'll be resuming lessons and have reworked my practice schedule for it, too. It's hard to get in the swing of things, especially with an increased school workload for the children that I must manage, but I miss it and won't achieve my personal goals of proficiency and sight reading/accompanying if I keep not making time for it. It's the first thing to go when I get busy, but I'm happy to bring it back now that I'm adjusting to the new normal in our home.
No issues for Independence Day, diet-wise. It was just another day of the week for us. Today we did a little family celebration and are letting the kids camp out in our yard - my food transgression was eating an extra hamburger patty (which put me over my daily target by 300 calories, but it was SO good). Since the calorie limits are self imposed and not Atkins imposed, I think I did incredibly well. My kids made s'mores in the yard, over the weber grill - they looked and smelled SO phenomenal, but I still chose not to indulge. I just don't need them, I've had them before and may even eat one again in the future. But it wasn't part of my plan and I didn't go there. Neither did I cave and eat sweet potato fries with my delicious homemade mayo. All these things are favorite foods, but they really have no hold over me anymore. I enjoy the smell and the memory of eating them, but don't find I want them badly enough to choose them over my health and commitment to getting this weight off.
I am so grateful The Lord has grown me in this area - food has been an idol of mine for many years and I still struggle with gluttony. But between a livable, comfortable plan and His hand guiding me to make better choices, I am winning this fight. I still have obesity, even if I'm in remission and don't show signs of it externally, but I am working every day to keep it a non-issue and enjoy a healthy, active body and life.
And that's my news - mostly good, more of the same.
My commitment for this next week - make time each day for piano, workout, AND bible study, around my core family obligations. I need to make those things habitual and fit around my service to my family, and that can be kind of tricky. Oh. And pray that I don't cave and beg my husband for the scale ;)
Still on plan here, doing very well. It's amazing how much easier I'm finding it to just out my head down and charge forward without the scale. Time is slipping by and I'm not even bothered by the 'limits' of an extended induction most days. I would still like more veggies and some nuts, thats my ideal way of eating (well, in Realville - my ideal is actually eating whatever I want with zero consequences, but that's fantasy land ;) ), but I'm truly having an easy time of staying on plan and just persisting this way. Who'd have thought, right?
Victories abound this week. Here's the list:
I was able to zip up my smallest prepregnancy pants with zero overhang.
I zipped up the tightest skirt I own, which is a size ten and was barely ably to pull up over my hips previously. The zipper gapped a good few inches.
In order to not spend insane amounts of money on new bras just yet, I took some of my too-small cup and too-big band nursing bras and cut about three inches out of the band. The cups just fit right now, after weight loss, and the band is now nice and snug with all that extra fabric out. So I can get another month or two of wear out of them before it's back to Ewa Michalak's site for more.
I just took some quick waist measurements, since I look visibly slimmer and my skirts are loose, tight stuff now fits, etc etc. my waist was 32.5 in., my underbust was 32.5 in., and my hips were 41.5 in. Now - on May 4th, my measurements were 36, 34.25, and 42.75 inches, respectively. That means, in those areas alone, I have lost 6.5 inches in just over five weeks. It doesn't even count the spots I wasn't measuring, like bust or thighs. With visible progress like that, is it any wonder I don't care what the scale says? I'm on plan and my body is responding. Good enough for me!
By this, I mean the rapid and visible slimming in ketosis, especially when someone is keto-adapted. It may not be as physically noticeable on someone coming off a carb diet, even though they get impressive scale results compared to someone who isn't carrying all the extra water weight from a standard American diet. But for someone like me, who has been keto-adapted for months and months, it seems even the slightest restriction on calories turns me from 'easily maintaining' to 'drop it like it's hot'.
In two-ish weeks on plan my back, ribs, and face, in particular, are visibly slimmer. Like, dramatically. I have no idea what the scale would say, but my clothing says 'looser!' more every passing day.
And on the note of the scale, after not having it for a week or so I can say that the pain of its passing has eased (I'm only partly kidding). Breaking the habit of jumping on the scale for affirmation seemed like it would be easy for me. After all, I've been charting my weight for years, even through watching it climb with two pregnancies, working at maintenance stability, periods of rapid loss and slow loss and no loss despite my efforts. And yet it wasn't easy to let go and I wasn't as unaffected by the scale's data as I first surmised. But now that I've gotten out of the habitual weighing and charting I'm doing great. I might still have a tic that makes me look down at its empty spot ever so often when I enter the bathroom, but it's a *small* tic!
I still wish I knew what I weighed right now, but if all other metrics are accurate it is less (perhaps by multiple pounds) than when I buckled back down to get off my 168 set point. I'm really excited to see what happens at the end of summer or into the fall when I finally jump back on. It would be so nice not to just anticipate coming up on my low weight and then blowing past it, but getting into an almost unseen weight decade altogether? That would be immensely satisfying. I saw 158 on the scale *once* in high school. It was in the middle of ice skating, soccer seasons, cross country, and walking home every day. Oh, and then when I got home I roller bladed as soon as I was able to put them on. I really miss that actually - when things settle down with Holly I'm really thinking of budgeting back in ice time to skate (relearn, really, since it's been a decade off the ice now!). Splitting my time between that and the pool sounds very nice. So many possibilities! And back on the subject of weight, if I drop just ten pounds in the next three months I'll have hit my 'lifetime' low since childhood. How cool is that? I'm really hoping to settle in the 138 range, or possibly even 128.... But that seems like an almost impossible hope from where I'm sitting now. We'll see!
I just finished a T-tap Tempo workout and feel strong and energized, as opposed to wet noodles, which is a nice change. I'm also nicely on target for my daily calories and macros. Nothing to report, nothing to complain about, just chugging along on induction as long as it is comfy :)
I can't believe it, but I truly miss the scale! I don't miss weighing in, per se, but just having it available to check when I'm feeling bloated or skinny would be nice. I keep having a mental itch to jump on it, only to go into the bathroom and realize it isn't there. It's getting less persistent, but since I can feel the diet working well now that I'm back being strict, I want to check scale progress, too!
At this point, however, I'm officially keeping that sucker locked away until Labor Day. I may even do it until October, if I can stand it.
It's amazing when I keep a calorie deficit and eat on plan how quickly I look thinner. I don't know if it is water weight or just that my adipocytes empty themselves of their contents liberally and with great speed when I'm in ketosis, but even just under a week on plan and I already look slimmer. I can see it around my bra, chin, and even in my fingers (which have never been particularly pudgy).
On another note, those headaches kept coming. I had another two before I triangulated it to taking 5-HTP again. Something about it this time was giving me trouble. The headaches would start about three hours after I'd take the supplement, and were very nasty. It was the only thing I added back into my rotation recently, and that headache happened the first day I put it back in be repeated itself in the same pattern the two days following. I decided, upon reading that headaches are a common symptom of 5-HTP supplementation, to nix that pill and see what happened.
Well, approximately nothing happened. No headache of doom. Took the pill out of my pillbox today as well and, sure enough, nothing again today. Got it, 5-HTP won't play friendly with my body anymore. Duly noted.
Last random tidbit, in addition to being on plan perfectly (except for this evening, I had two extra slices of bacon and a tbsp of sour cream that put me over my daily calories by about 105... Hardly worth accounting) in both food choices and quantities, I did also get in more T-tap this evening and now feel like a wet noodle. Between eating and exercising as planned, I imagine the weight will come off nicely (especially with nursing burning calories, and I'm eating 1850 a day which is not high for Atkins at my BMR). That does increase the temptation to check on the scale for progress, but I think I actually do better staying on plan when that is my sole accountability - I can't mentally say 'it was a good weigh in, time for more salad dressing!' when the only thing I can count on is keeping a steady deficit of plan-appropriate foods.
I wasn't sure if I wanted to - but I'm pretty much decided to do an extended induction as long as I can stand it. I definitely prefer ongoing weightloss (OWL) for food, but I'm comfortable enough on induction to want to stick it out until the end of July. We'll see, but I'm not counting myself a failure if I have to transition upward a food list or three to make an event work!
I don't know if it is related to getting back to induction or just plain being out of alignment and tired, but I have developed an awful headache from late morning to now. Just in case it is diet related I consumed coco crack (butter/coconut oil/cocoa powder/stevia) to be sure I'm not consuming too much protein compared to fat (much of my dietary fat was from nuts and dark chocolate) and tossed back about half a teaspoon of NuSalt and washed it down with water.
The latter, in particular, should reveal whether this was an induction headache (seems unlikely since I'm well keto-adapted and my normal diet has been very healthful and not in excess in the carb arena, no including off plan foods) or something else. NuSalt has plenty of potassium and sodium, and that, combined with a tablespoon of my normal cal/mag/zinc supplement (which I've been lazy about taking lately) should take care of any electrolyte imbalance my suddenly-stricter diet may be causing. The pressure is rising here, too, and the barometric changes of the past day could also be guilty. Stress, lack of sleep, and just general bad luck might be culprits - maybe even the sole culprits, as these other issues could have been more antagonizers than instigators. But I have a headache and am nauseous, so I'm laying down after typing this. I should be doing dishes, listening to a sermon, planning lessons, and a number of ther tasks, but a nap seems most prudent after the salt pounding, eating, and ibuprofen.
On a slightly related note, I think I've decided to hide my scale and just weigh once a month or less from here on out. Since I'm not maintaining, but working to lose, I need to focus on behaviors more than log trend changes up or down in my weight. Last night I did a vigorous T-tap workout and woke up this morning quite a bit heavier than I should have been, given my eating and such. Sore muscles retain water, there's no helping it. And while I know this and it causes me only slight annoyance, I realized after the initial moment that I gained absolutely no insight or help from the scale - it just wasn't useful as a diagnostic tool, progress metric, or anything else at that moment. I'm generally a huge proponent of daily weighing, but it's less than helpful during a period like this where the scale will take care of itself in the long run, but the day to day fluctuations just aren't to be trusted. If I'm sticking to my calories and food lists as I plan, I WILL get smaller. It might take longer than I want, but it will happen. I can observe that in the mirror and my clothing, which are going to be more accurate for the time being than finding out how much I weigh at a given point.
So I'm packing the scale away in a very inconvenient place (in the window bench in my son's room, which is under a bunch of toys and heavy books) until July. Possibly until September or even October, when my weight loss anniversary roles around. I have no intention of ditching the scale forever - my adjusted trend line for weight has been going for years and I fully intend to keep it up, as staying in a tight weight window is a crucial maintenance check for me. But while losing, it is ENTIRELY behaviorally based, and I need to focus on making the correct choices, not on the number popping up. It might not hurt, but it certainly won't help, either. So a scale break has been declared.
As I noted yesterday I was on plan then, and have been on plan now. I'm packing away part of my lunch to eat for dinner because I'm not hungry/too nauseous and dizzy to eat it, but all choices and quantities are within induction guidelines. Yay me.
If I feel better tonight I'll do a lighter T-tap workout. If not, it will be a rest day. I'll report back in tomorrow, regardless. One of the upsides of losing as opposed to just maintaining is that it provides me with much more incentive to blog - maintenance, successfully undertaken, is about the most boring thing to try and document. That's the only reason for my blog silence - nothing much to talk about and the rest of life being busy. But when I'm losing, there's much more to discuss :)
So I am reasonably healthy again, though still extremely busy. We got back from a road trip to Homer where I managed to stay on plan despite endless tourist traps and faily high stress. Unfortunately I keep vacillating between 1500 calorie days and 2500 calories day, or more. It's kind of obnoxious to be perfectly on plan one day and then munching or in high calorie eating situations other days.
Some of that is just the nature of trying to diet while nursing. It's tough. But some is just plain laziness. I HATE losing weight. It is hard for me and takes a lot of mental and physical effort. Maintaining I do like breathing, it truly has become second nature for me and despite all the high and low days I'm right where I was at the beginning of May, at 168 pounds. It's a set point for me, and comfortable in size 12's, a few 14's, and medium to large tops. But it isn't where I want to be.
I can attribute at least a fraction of my current struggle to enjoying nuts, berries, and chocolate quite much. I can maintain indefinitely and with great joy on 30-50 net carb, and maintain or lose at a leisurely pace with 25-30 net carbs and strict calorie counts. But I am sick of being on this journey, where I've been losing weight for almost five years. I just want to get to goal (in the sub 140 zone now) and be able to do some of the things I've been putting off until then. Namely getting a custom corset (I really love them!) and a new wardrobe of signature pieces, rather than whatever is cheap and looks reasonably attractive and spit-up resistant. It's vain, but part of my lackadaisical attitude at this weight is that it's 'good enough' in a lot of ways. I'm no longer obese, I'm reasonably attractive and put together in clothes, my health is excellent, food is delicious, and I can balance it all without stress. Put simply, I'm just comfortable enough here to default/hang out at this weight, but not comfortable enough with it to want to stay here forever. Hence the internal conflict.
Solution? I'm back on induction and doing at least a week of it by the book, likely as many as I can stand, to she'd weight quicker. Induction takes away the temptations of chocolate and nuts, or overeating on heavy cream, etc. It's austere enough that I stop eating for pleasure and just go on autopilot. I can't stay on it indefinitely, but I can manage it comfortably and it sheds weight like mad, especially at my current target calorie level (around 1850).
Today was my first day back on induction and it was a great success. So now to build on this one day at a time, and no allowing extra carbs or foods unless I absolutely have no choice, like another road trip where a larger than needed Caesar salad or a bag of almonds is the best choice available. I'm working out as many days as I have time, too. That's more optional for me with how busy we are, but still a definite priority to get in the T-tap and maintain strength.
I'm still five pounds above prepregnancy at 168, but if I'm disciplined and stop putzing around it is entirely possible for me to make goal in a timely fashion, preferably before my five year weight loss anniversary in October. So I'm on extended induction, by the book except for caffeinated coffee and the occasional diet soda. And I WILL down below my high school weight (163, which I reached just days before conceiving Holly) and then smaller. Because I like 168, but I'll LOVE 140. And mummy tummy or not, I know I can do it. I just have far too much padding left for losing that much body fat to be a big struggle. Hormones do make it more challenging, my body may want to hang onto fat as long as long as I'm nursing, but I'm still going to try my hardest to make it all coalesce and get where I want to be.
And don't get me wrong - maintaining my weight through busyness and stress, coming out of a celebration season (pretty much all of May, for me) at the same weight I entered is huge. I'm very, very happy with my hard work and don't take maintaining for granted. But I want to get to goal more than I want to languish here any longer. So I will :)
I'm coughing my head off because I'm sick, and no posts thanks to being terribly busy the last week. But I had my seventh anniversary, my 27th birthday, Mother's Day, and a meeting with the state Board of Pharmacy. Other than this headcold I'm doing great - on plan just as I wanted, doing my TTAP (taking a bit of a break right now while I'm so sick), etc etc.
I'll post more at a future date but right now let me leave you with a 'gem' I found, while looking for a picture for my grandfather's 80th birthday. First, a picture from early 2006 when I was engaged to my husband (I was 19 and not at my high weight):
And this was me for our anniversary on May 6th, six weeks postpartum with baby #4. Mini victory - I was wearing no shapewear with the dress and it was a pre-pregnancy piece:
And as a bonus, the beautiful flowers he gave me for that occasion:
Still about six pounds up from pre-pregnancy. The scale isn't being kind to me since I'm sicker than a dog, but I imagine I'll see another whoosh soon.
FriendsPrior Fat Girl
The Don't Go Hungry Diet
Fit to the Finish
Making my weigh back to me
In Weigh Over My Head
Weekly Weight Loss
ONEDERLAND! 3/3/10: 198.8
10/10/10: Baby born!
10/4/10: 232.8 - DUE DATE!
Highest weight: 257-260